Messed up day

screwed up day.... that's it, my day's ruined. Damn it. Really, really HATE false alarms. Make me feel like such an idiot worrying about something for days that never happened at all.

As i felt how people disappoint me, i also felt how bad it is for both God and my parents to feel when i disappoint them as well. Anyway glad that everything's back to normal... hopefully, Unless... what the heck just shut up and get over it.....

I will get down on my knees... I will pray

For the first time i felt so sad... for a sister. I guess i have to accept what i've read, although it will really break my heart. Yes, what happened has happened, neither you can erase it nor can you pretend as if it had never happened. The reality of life is a cruel fact, and the best that you can do is to accept it and learn from this lesson and move on, not looking back anymore. The spiritual journey with the Lord will never be easy. We will always be tested on our faith through situations like this to determine whether we will fall behind or to hold on steadfast on the Lord in order to move on. I will fast and pray for you. May you be encouraged and healed by the grace of God.

Weird

Isn't it weird.
Isn't it strange.
Even though we're just two strangers on this runaway train
We're both trying to find a place in the sun
We've lived in the shadows, but doesn't everyone
Isn't it strange how we all feel a little bit weird sometimes
Weird.

Isn't it hard. Standing in the rain
You're on the verge of going crazy and your heart's in pain
No one can hear but you're screaming so loud
You feel like you're all alone in a faceless crowd
Isn't it strange how we all get a little bit weird sometimes

Sitting on the side. Waiting for a sign
Hoping that my luck will change
Reaching for a hand that can understand, someone who feels the same
When you live in a cookie cutter world being different is a sin
So you don't stand out. And you don't fit in
Weird

Sitting on the side, waiting for a sign
Hoping that my luck will change
Reaching for a hand that can understand, someone who feels the same
When you live in a cookie cutter world if you're different you can't win
So you don't stand out and you don't fit in
Isn't it strange how we all feel a little bit weird
Strange, how we all get a little bit
Strange, how we all feel a little bit weird sometimes

just a little bit weird sometimes

Welcome to the family

Finally... after three years of agony trying to save every ounce of money... after three years of so close being able to get you but somehow it didn't happen, i've finally got you in my arms... the guitar of my dreams. Stunning cool Black agathis body, 24 frets, ESP humbucker pickups, double-locking licensed Floyd Rose whammy bar, killer looks and killer tone... what can i ask for more... welcome to the family...


*hint: will also be expecting a new member in August...

trying times...

I'm shocked. I'm surprised and I just can't really understand what had happened. After all this time i thought everything had already ended long ago, but it seems to me that you had still been keeping it in your heart all this while. I guess that it is natural for you to endure such pain. It hurts me too to see you in such state. I don't know what to say anymore. Perhaps not to say anything and to pray that the Lord will heal you of your broken heart would be the best thing to do. A word of encouragement from the Lord perhaps: Be strong and courageous. May you leave the past behind and move on your life.

family, i miss you all...

reached KL at 8.00 am. I hate this feeling. I'm all alone again, alone in KL. Though i've been back for a short three days in hometown, every moment i spent was really precious. Truly memoriable day.

Happy mother's day to you: who spent the rest of your post-married days striving to bind the family together. Thank you for every meal that you've provided, every gift that you had given, every discipline that you have taught me. Though we had tough times together, i will never forget the love and care that you have endlessly provided me. Love you always.

Happy birthday to you: Who spent your post-married days working all out to provide for the family. Though my ways and yours will never be the same, i will never forget the priceless moment we've been through together. Maybe we can go out fishing again someday... Hopefully

dear little one: you seem like nice guy, i give you special discount =) jokes aside, thank you for always being the understanding person beside me when nobody in this world will ever be able to understand a person like i am. We used to fight alot, but i believe that every moment good or bad is priceless in its own worth, therefore i'm glad to have a sibling like you. All the best in your tennis and studies. Hopefully together we will be able to turn the family upside down into receiving the Lord Jesus Christ. I'm unable to do it alone, please support me.

I miss my house...
I miss the lights...
I miss mother...
I miss father...
I miss brother...
I miss the piano...
I miss the SONY TV...
I miss PS2...
I miss bed...
I miss comforter...
I miss dim sum, chee cheong fun, hor hee fun, rojak, ipoh kopi...

You guys are all that i had... by the grace of GOD... miss you always... love

My first and probably the best i could give...

Well... this is what i've been meddling with... this is the finished product after two weeks of two hours averagely everyday. I will be submitting it to enter the SUBLIME contest. Yes i know it's not accurate from the original but i've already gave all i had. Lets just say this is my version of Kaoru.

Happiness

In the silence of the night, the dream that awaken me seemed too childish
As if to carry a heavy load, where it all lead to was a cold room and a cold body
Unable to tell anyone into the uncertain future

Even if the motive was impure, we were able to trust each other, you pushed my coward self back
And when we held a secret together, the pain of love danced from the sky...
What words should I say?

Don't wanna hurt you anymore tell me the meaning of your happiness
Can it even be the answer to the meaning of your life...
Don't wanna hurt you anymore tell me the meaning of your happiness
On the heart, unable to confess, only time drifted by

The prayer drifted to the skies, the naked truth from the heart
What that hand, the new life born in the sunset city, will grasp

Don't wanna hurt you anymore

Don't wanna hurt you anymore tell me the meaning of your happiness
Can it even be the answer to the meaning of your life...
Don't wanna hurt you anymore tell me the meaning of your happiness
On the heart, unable to confess, only time drifted by

At times I stagger in the crowd, alone
Shutting my ears to the voices of violence, tears poured
Even in the days that was only to be stolen from, life was strong
I dedictate this HAPPINESS to you, unreplacable in this world
I love you...I love you