For the first time i've tasted victory...
It has been the longest week of my life. On last saturday night's service my pastor preached about stand firm on the truth. Somehow i felt that God will make this topic the most unforgettable one in my life. In fact He did and i was being made to put it into practise.
Right after the night of Saturday service i was facing my first challenge. There were past relationships revealed to me by the Holy Spirit that i felt that i need to let go and turn away. Somehow the devil threatened me that if i dare to turn away from it, he will expose everything and the consiquences are: i will lose my friends, i will lose my family, i will lose my reputation, i will lose my future, and the most important thing, i will disgrace God's name. It was really a struggle for me to make a decision, but i finally made it and thank God everything turned out okay. I'm really glad i stood firm in God.
On thursday and friday i had a recording session and performance. Last two months back my band managed to get into the seventh place in the top ten bands in a band competition and we were entitled to record our song for the compilation album for free and the day was on thursday. Friday was a performance for my drummer's college night event. So happened on thursday my cellgroup had prayer meeting for friday's cellgroup multiplication event and friday was the cellgroup celebration and multiplication event itself.
At first i've already made up my mind that i will go for the recording session and preformance as i've already practised alot and gave a lot of effort on it. On thursday just an hour before the recording, i met my cell intern online so i told her i will not be going for the prayer and cellgroup celebration. She challenged me to let go of the recording and performance, which to me was impossible because it's a once in a life time chance. But God rebuked me and i felt that i should honor Him first. It was also another hard decision for me to make. It was my biggest sacrifice that i had decided to let go of it and went to prayer meeting and cellgroup. And i'm glad i did. Praise God.
Of course, i have to bear the consequences. My bandmates were really disappointed in me. They were so disappointed to the point that they wept. i felt really bad too. i understand how it feels to be left in the last minute. i believe that they will not be talking to me for some time. Somehow i felt that i've lost my friends.
Friday morning, barely six o'clock in the morning before the sun has even rise, my phone rang and my mom was on the phone and she brought me bad news. my grandfather had passed away at 5 in the morning. I was not able to attend the cellgroup celebration. Somehow my cellgroup intern met me again online and we prayed that God will allow me to stay for the cellgroup celebration. Praise God that God answered my prayers and my aunt called me to follow my uncle's car back to hometown the next day.
I have to prepare myself for the funeral. My family is from a buddhist background and my grandmother is a medium. There will be a lot od spiritual attacks on me, especially i will be forced to hold joss sticks and to bow down to idols. I prayed hard through the journey back, praying that God will help me stand firm and God will make a way for me.
I arrived back in Ipoh at the parlour. The funeral service was about to start and i was told to hold joss sticks through out the ceremony. As the josssticks were being passed to me from my mom, i rejected them. My mom insisted on me that i must hold, but i stood firm and i refused. There were also alot of other people who called me to hold joss sticks, including my grandmother and aunt. But thank God i didn't submit to it. i've come so far and i stood my ground so far. i don't want to blow everything away just because i slacked on the last second.
The funeral has ended, and i've won the battle in the end.
But somehow the devil just refused to let me go and insist i carry on with the battle. There i was in the hospital the next day for a medical check up about the swell on my neck. The doctor suspected that i've developed Goiter. It's a kind of swelling of a gland in the neck which causes the neck to balloon up and it isn't a pretty sight. So the doctor's suggestion is if tested positive i need to undergo a surgery to remove it. Please God, i don't want any surgery. It was really disturbing and i somehow fell on that... i was kind of down... maybe i'm tired and i can't continue anymore. my level of faith dropped and i started to think of quitting. Thank God for my supporting sisters who waked me up with the word of God and finally came back to my senses and to gather myself up. i'm ready now. God is my strength and God is with me.
Just want to thank everyone who had helped me to go through this week. It's been really challenging and without you all, i don't think i'll ever be able to taste victory in God's name. Thanks to Sophia, Ewilly, Gillian, Michael and Danny for their never ending encouragement prayers and encouragement. And to Shan Shang, thanks for the challenge that helped me overcame myself so i can overcome other challenges ahead. And to Jon Lai, thanks for being my accountable brother and to pray and fast for me. I really appreciate everything you guys had sacrificed for me. And most of all, all thanks, honor and glory be to God, reign high in heaven above, for seeing me through every moment. Even though it will never be an ending battle, i believe You will make sure i'll be victorious till the very end. Halellujah~
Right after the night of Saturday service i was facing my first challenge. There were past relationships revealed to me by the Holy Spirit that i felt that i need to let go and turn away. Somehow the devil threatened me that if i dare to turn away from it, he will expose everything and the consiquences are: i will lose my friends, i will lose my family, i will lose my reputation, i will lose my future, and the most important thing, i will disgrace God's name. It was really a struggle for me to make a decision, but i finally made it and thank God everything turned out okay. I'm really glad i stood firm in God.
On thursday and friday i had a recording session and performance. Last two months back my band managed to get into the seventh place in the top ten bands in a band competition and we were entitled to record our song for the compilation album for free and the day was on thursday. Friday was a performance for my drummer's college night event. So happened on thursday my cellgroup had prayer meeting for friday's cellgroup multiplication event and friday was the cellgroup celebration and multiplication event itself.
At first i've already made up my mind that i will go for the recording session and preformance as i've already practised alot and gave a lot of effort on it. On thursday just an hour before the recording, i met my cell intern online so i told her i will not be going for the prayer and cellgroup celebration. She challenged me to let go of the recording and performance, which to me was impossible because it's a once in a life time chance. But God rebuked me and i felt that i should honor Him first. It was also another hard decision for me to make. It was my biggest sacrifice that i had decided to let go of it and went to prayer meeting and cellgroup. And i'm glad i did. Praise God.
Of course, i have to bear the consequences. My bandmates were really disappointed in me. They were so disappointed to the point that they wept. i felt really bad too. i understand how it feels to be left in the last minute. i believe that they will not be talking to me for some time. Somehow i felt that i've lost my friends.
Friday morning, barely six o'clock in the morning before the sun has even rise, my phone rang and my mom was on the phone and she brought me bad news. my grandfather had passed away at 5 in the morning. I was not able to attend the cellgroup celebration. Somehow my cellgroup intern met me again online and we prayed that God will allow me to stay for the cellgroup celebration. Praise God that God answered my prayers and my aunt called me to follow my uncle's car back to hometown the next day.
I have to prepare myself for the funeral. My family is from a buddhist background and my grandmother is a medium. There will be a lot od spiritual attacks on me, especially i will be forced to hold joss sticks and to bow down to idols. I prayed hard through the journey back, praying that God will help me stand firm and God will make a way for me.
I arrived back in Ipoh at the parlour. The funeral service was about to start and i was told to hold joss sticks through out the ceremony. As the josssticks were being passed to me from my mom, i rejected them. My mom insisted on me that i must hold, but i stood firm and i refused. There were also alot of other people who called me to hold joss sticks, including my grandmother and aunt. But thank God i didn't submit to it. i've come so far and i stood my ground so far. i don't want to blow everything away just because i slacked on the last second.
The funeral has ended, and i've won the battle in the end.
But somehow the devil just refused to let me go and insist i carry on with the battle. There i was in the hospital the next day for a medical check up about the swell on my neck. The doctor suspected that i've developed Goiter. It's a kind of swelling of a gland in the neck which causes the neck to balloon up and it isn't a pretty sight. So the doctor's suggestion is if tested positive i need to undergo a surgery to remove it. Please God, i don't want any surgery. It was really disturbing and i somehow fell on that... i was kind of down... maybe i'm tired and i can't continue anymore. my level of faith dropped and i started to think of quitting. Thank God for my supporting sisters who waked me up with the word of God and finally came back to my senses and to gather myself up. i'm ready now. God is my strength and God is with me.
Just want to thank everyone who had helped me to go through this week. It's been really challenging and without you all, i don't think i'll ever be able to taste victory in God's name. Thanks to Sophia, Ewilly, Gillian, Michael and Danny for their never ending encouragement prayers and encouragement. And to Shan Shang, thanks for the challenge that helped me overcame myself so i can overcome other challenges ahead. And to Jon Lai, thanks for being my accountable brother and to pray and fast for me. I really appreciate everything you guys had sacrificed for me. And most of all, all thanks, honor and glory be to God, reign high in heaven above, for seeing me through every moment. Even though it will never be an ending battle, i believe You will make sure i'll be victorious till the very end. Halellujah~
posted by sephirot at
12:27 AM
3 Comments:
Kor, mei has done nothing by myself, merely be the vessel of God to use by Him and spoke to you. Ultimately, God is the one who wins you back.
All glory be unto Him.
The more you're going through, the stronger you'll be, cos you'll taste more of His fruits throughout :)
Mei always supports you in prayer and in whatever I can do to have you grow together with mei, ya? :)
Onoz, you got spammed!!
Kianmengdude, Satan paid nothing, while Jesus bought you with His life. God owns you, coz He bought you :)
And you've not compromised in the face of your loved ones, but held fast to your stand for God. That will not be forgotten, not here, nor in heaven. God remembers what you do for Him :)
Can't say I did much either...what I did was the least I could do...never forget that we're soldiers in the Lord's army, and I've always got your back. All of us do ;) Just call for reinforcements when you need us, ya?
haha jon you bet i need reinforcements from everywhere i can find more than ever! Thanks everybody for covering my back, especially God!
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